zombiecrowd

zombiecrowd @ 2005-01-03T01:26:00

2005-01-03T07:27:11Z

Because I am awesome and stuff, I made a new journal.

It's friends only.

Add me.

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zombiecrowd @ 2005-01-02T00:56:00

2005-01-02T06:57:06Z

I think im quitting Lj.
Because it gets old.
Not that everyone on here doesn't rule though.

zombiecrowd @ 2005-01-01T11:39:00

2005-01-01T17:48:26Z

Last night was pretty good i'd say.

Went to the show. The bands were mediocore. I was kindof dissapointed by the Thunders.
After that, went to some party.
I tried getting drunk but for some reason it did not work. So I smoked instead.
Then it turned 2005 and I got really happy.
New year kisses from drunk people. And watching people being excited was fun.
Then Lisa, Nick, Michael & I went back to Nicks.
Watched Shaun of the Dead. I don't really remember it, it was kind of funny though. But it was neat.

New Years Resolutions.
1-Dont drink -no scratch that one.
2-Dont drink pop.
3-Dont smoke. Cigarettes, that is.
4-TRY to understand things more, instead of getting pissed off.

Im in a pretty good mood. I think I can keep those resolutions.

HAPPY 2005.

zombiecrowd @ 2004-12-30T18:13:00

2004-12-31T00:31:11Z

Oh my. I am in a DAMN good mood.

And people bother me. But I don't care.

zombiecrowd @ 2004-12-29T21:36:00

2004-12-30T03:44:29Z

Steff has a fog machine and I can't see anything.

Walked the dogs today. Went to the store. Went to Steffs. Got high. Yep, good fun. It put all of us in a great room. I love it.

Yes.

zombiecrowd @ 2004-12-29T01:09:00

2004-12-29T07:09:58Z

I AM 18% WHITE TRASH!

I, my friend, have class. I am so not white trash. . I am more than likely Democrat, and my place is neat, and there is a good chance I may never drink wine from a box.

Take the WHITE TRASH test at Fuali.com

Hahah.
That would be true, except the only wine I find good is from a box.

zombiecrowd @ 2004-12-28T00:36:00

2004-12-28T06:40:53Z

So I love my friends.
And going to Dennys with them. Ranting about things.
Because it's fun.

I hate tv.

...

zombiecrowd @ 2004-12-27T02:30:00

2004-12-27T08:31:31Z

If I don't think about it, life rules.
If I do, it sucks.

But everything sucks if I think about it too long.
Why can't I be a mindless piece of shit?
No, i'd rather not, but it would be easier.

I don't want to die.

I love my friends.

zombiecrowd @ 2004-12-26T00:50:00

2004-12-26T07:28:38Z

Christmas was so mediocore. And I hate the word mediocore.
I got some stuff I wanted. Alot of gift cards.
My uncle asked me if I had a nigger boyfriend. Whew. That was pretty funny, except, he was serious. My mom's side is too damn Oklahoman.
Went to my dads. Got more gum. I have so much.
We went to the movies. Both argued with his girlfriend about war & guns on the way.
She disagrees with everything we say, and it drives me crazy. Mostly because she yells about it.
Saw Spanglish. SO BAD. Don't see it. Then the end of The Aviator. It was too long.
Dad took me home, we argued about how his girlfriend is so wrong. #&@)# He needs a new one, that doesn't lay on the couch all the time. But shes still cool.

I want to sleep. I've been up since 7. But I just can't, and I hate it. Fuck sleeping.

I told Steff i'd go shopping with her tomorrow. I hate shopping. But I want to see Steff.

Hell, I want to go back to school. School keeps my mind off things. I wish I could choose when to have my break. Life has just been so boring lately, and its really getting to me. I musn't let it. I must do something about that.

zombiecrowd @ 2004-12-25T13:32:00

2004-12-25T19:50:44Z

Merry Christmas.

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Kate.
2. Buddy [only to britt].
3. ...Awesome?

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. Ktgeorge32
2. Teenagetrooper
3. I forgot it, but it was just a bunch of random letters.

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My hands.
2. My brain.
3. My emotional being.

THREE THINGS YOU HATE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. I have good thoughts I just can't write.
2. Sometimes I give in easily.
3. Not being able to ever make up my mind.

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. Scottish.
2. German.
3. Norwegien.

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. Death/dying.
2. Having a shitty life.
3. Man made heights [really tall buildings, fair rides.] I'm okay on cliffs and such.

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. Usually, a computer.
2. A book.
3. Warm clothes.

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. Brown pants.
2. Conflict shirt.
3. Eyeliner.

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR ARTISTS AT THE MOMENT:
1. Nausea.
2. Contravene.
3. Boys Night Out.

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
1. Feliz Navidad!
2. Freakish.
3. Cybergod

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS
1. Not doing anything harmful to the body.
2. Being nicer to people, or more understanding.
3. Get my lisense.

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP (love is a given):
1. Complete openess, where you can tell them everything and be confortable.
2. Mutal feelings.
3. Eh ..trust?

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE
1. I like the smell of earwax.
2. I get along with people pretty good.
3. I always crave cheeseburgers.

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. Shoes.
2. Their voice.
3. Height.

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. Lie to my dad.
2. Stay completly calm all the time.
3. Makeup my mind.

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. Reading.
2. Talking to people.
3. .. Stealing patriotic magnets?

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. Open more presents.
2. Talk to certain people.
3. Hang out with Nina.

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. Astronomer.
2. ...
3. I'd be a writer if I could write.

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON HOLIDAY:
1. Alaska.
2. Sweden/Norway.
3. Newfoundland.

THREE KIDS' NAMES
1. Jack.
2. Clementine.
3. Mike.

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Visit many places.
2. Have a kid.
3. Figure something out, something big that is.

yes i stole that from bekah [I hope I spelled that right!].

And ...I hope everyones having a good holiday. Im off to the grandmas.

zombiecrowd @ 2004-12-24T15:48:00

2004-12-24T21:53:45Z

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVE.

Even if you don't celebrate Christmas, oh well.
I think Christmas is more widely celebrated not just because most people are christians or whatever, just that christmas is alot easier to sell. Who else puts useless lights all around their house, buys mass amounts of presents, and a big tree? I dont know, but I love it. It rules.

We're keeping my cousins cat until tonight so they can suprise my little cousin. I want to keep it. It rules.

Anyways.
Yeah.

zombiecrowd @ 2004-12-23T23:39:00

2004-12-24T05:42:37Z

I feel drunk, not drunk, just as if I have drank a whole bottle of vodka. The bottom of my stomach is burning.

I just feel really weird.

I should get out and do more this break. Because school doesn't sound half bad right now.

So Christmas should hurry up, because im ready to get it over with.

zombiecrowd @ 2004-12-22T00:57:00

2004-12-22T07:00:38Z

So stealing patriotic ribbon magnets off peoples cars makes my break. Most fun thing ever.
Except the ones that say "Keep my husband safe"..yeah I felt bad.
But Support the troops & God bless the USA look better all over Elle's car.

I like Denny's more than IHOP.
Yep.

Jody's back in town. It's crazy. I haven't seen her since June. She's the exact same, but I guess that's good.

Yeeeeeep.
Bought my mom a gift with my christmas money.
She better like it.
Or else.
& got Kristin a little something.

I have nothing to say.

zombiecrowd @ 2004-12-20T21:31:00

2004-12-21T03:37:13Z

i want my hair like that. except longer. so its everywhere, but still shaved on the side. i love it.

or dreads.

everything makes my hair suck.

and i want my septum pierced.

and i wish i didn't live in oklahoma. !!!!!!!!!!!

ALL OF THAT I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS. but you know, not happening. unless someone kiddnaps me... wink.

zombiecrowd @ 2004-12-20T20:34:00

2004-12-21T02:36:14Z

I've decided when im at home and bored, South Park rules.

"Why can't we stick grandma in a nursing home closer to us so i dont have to drive 6 hours to get a GODDAMN PRESENT"

hahahaha.

Good times.

Uhm, I think i'll give everyone a hug for christmas. I'll give them with love, since it's the thought that counts, right?

-Hug-

Yea im bored.

zombiecrowd @ 2004-12-19T19:55:00

2004-12-20T01:56:19Z

1. What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before? um, weed.
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year? i don't think i made one. but i'm making one this year.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth? not that i remember.
4. Did anyone close to you die? nope.
5. What countries did you visit? mexico.
6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004? uhm, maybe a car? an exciting life as well.
7. What date from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? when i think of the last year, i think of doing nothing & getting fucked up. going to borders with kristin/steff. and alot of realizing things.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? i'm not sure. i quite eating animals. that's about the only positive thing i can think of. i started realizing things, for the better.
9. What was your biggest failure? none. i quit being apathetic to everything. i guess thats good ..but i was better off that way.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury? no i did not.
11. What was the best thing you bought? cd's? i didn't buy much.
12. Whose behavior merited celebration? i dont know?!
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? im sure a few.
14. Where did most of your money go? cd's, food ..uhm yeah!

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? found new good music. made some good new friends. was really awesome.
16. What song will always remind you of 2004? ehh ...any postal service shit.
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? i was in denial around this time and had a huge fucking ego. so i guess im somewhat sadder.
ii. thinner or fatter? i think thinner.
iii. richer or poorer? poorer.
18. What do you wish you'd done more of? moved on quicker, tried to be more social. yup.
19. What do you wish you'd done less of? thinking about the past & saying i wouldn't do things, when i did.
20. How will you be spending Christmas? family.

22. Did you fall in love in 2004? yeah.
23. How many one-night stands? i don't know. & i don't care.
24. What was your favorite TV program? family guy.
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? i don't hate them, but i dont really care for them.
26. What was the best book you read? either how we believe, or culture jam.
27. What was your greatest musical discovery? contravene.
28. What did you want and got? nothing i can think of.
30. What was your favorite film of this year? i heart huckabees. but garden state was good.
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? i turned 15, and i don't remember doing anything. i got drunk by myself.
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? if people would have stayed around longer. and less confusion.
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004? more like lack of. i wore my polka dot skirt all the time, and my ANL shirt & white jacket.

34. What kept you sane? music, books, myself. all my friends.
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? uhh none?
36. What political issue stirred you the most? well ..of course bush winining again.
37. Who did you miss? i missed one person for a great amount of the year. then ..i missed no one.
38. Who was the best new person you met? alex, steff. yeah.
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004: fuck people.
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year: "the world was closing in on me, fighting for some space. misdirected anger and it blew up in my face. life's to short for regrets so i'll learn from my mistakes, but how much fucking learning can one person take? don't look back and feel ashamed about how easily you played the game, cause the past is something we can't change." -the unseen.

yeah, that was a depressing surevy. this past year has been pretty blah. damn.

2005 should be better.

or good.

i will be positive about it.

zombiecrowd @ 2004-12-19T13:36:00

2004-12-19T19:44:41Z

I give this weekend a 9.5

Friday - Went to Ninas. Lindley came over, went to IHOP with Jared, Scott, Jeff ..and other people. Benji came and messed up the table so we had to leave. It was good to see people.

Saturday- Steff came over. Straylight Run show. Good stuff. Some guy tried to makeout with the chick in the band, and that was somewhat exciting. Went to Bueno with Austin, Kim, Zach, Steff & Sarah. Kim and Steff stayed the night ...it was cool.

TODAY- Lisa called, so me her and Steff went out to breakfast. Thrift stores, then Groovy threads where I found this REALLY fucking cool purse with RBW intials. Pissed me off, but oh well. Steff had to go home, so im going to my cousins birthday party in a minute.

Yes, life is good. I haven't been worried or thought of anything stressful at all this weekend. Maybe a little, but jesus, life is good.

I'm going to try and finish this book this break, so I think i'll get back to that..

My looooooves. Really. When I go places, I miss them more than I do people.

My favorite mammal in the whole entire world.

Yeah shes really classy.

AND SHE SMILES.

Oh the little one.

The only cat that sleeps with me.

Me ..just because I was bored.

I didn't mean to take this picture, but hey, I like my pants.

THE END.

zombiecrowd @ 2004-12-17T16:26:00

2004-12-17T22:27:00Z

IT'S WINTER BREAK.

Oh yeah.

I'm going to go enjoy my break and I will update this later.

zombiecrowd @ 2004-12-16T22:08:00

2004-12-17T04:52:26Z

So today was good, yet depressing.
Went to on the border with Britt, Robbie & Jillian, and Zach.
Left, went to see Britts friend.
She took me home and cried. I've never seen her cry.
Okay, well this once I saw her eyes water.
But still.
It was so sad.
I'll miss my buddy so much.

And the shows cancelled Saturday,
But I think we're going to Straylight Run.
Which is cool too, because they have some good music.

Last night Tommy called me.
It was so random. He hasn't in like a year.
I asked him what he had been up too, and he said "cleaning up from a bad experience"
So maybe everyones done with all that coke shit.
Or I hope so, just for their own sake.

Oh yeah. Britt & I went to Mardels tonight.
Hahah fun stuff. I had no idea Further Seems Forever was a christian band.
Or 12 stones.
And there was more suprises, but I forgot.
Then I picked up an "educational" book.
And one page said "The Christian part of the government"
I wanted to tear it up, becuase that is NONEXISTANT.
Or well ...i've never found it.
An actual written part that is.
Our president is a walking example, in a way.

Which reminds me, I went to the KKK site the other day.
Because I was trying to find out which governer of Oklahoma was in it.
Since our teacher told us last year there was, but I forgot who.
And it said " If you are attempting to "convert" us don't bother. We are born-again Christians and intend to remain so."
Yeah, and guess who's a born again Christian?
DING DING DING.
I suppose they're not all bad.
Well.
I haven't met one that isn't.

Lame lyrics, becuase I can.

we bottled and shelved all our regrets
let them ferment and came back to our senses
drove back home and slept a few days
woke up and laughed at how stupid we used to be
all these lines fall short of what i had in mind
a failed attempt to capsulize a feeling
so i just try fail and try and try again
someday i swear i'm going to get it
because i'm convinced that giving in is the worst thing there is

zombiecrowd @ 2004-12-15T20:38:00

2004-12-16T02:51:00Z

Sorry Britt Died: is it possible to cry so much that you cant cry anymore

That question sounds very emotional, yet valid. IS it possible you can cry so much there is no liquid left, or tears? Now this will bother me.

I've became fond of the sciene channel lately. Bill Nye the science guy was on tonight! Yeah, hes awesome.

I'm starting to really miss Jenks. Because I hate seeing pictures of everyone just hanging around after school and shit, I feel like i'm missing out on my whole school experience. And I only see my friends on weekends. Yeah, I hate it. I just need some new surroundings all together.

0AngryCereal0o: ....NIGGER.
teenage trooper: ...SLUT.
o0AngryCereal0o: ......POOPY PANTS.

But being able to talk to the friends all the time makes it better.

I don't want a car. I want a bike. One without FLAT TIRES.

zombiecrowd @ 2004-12-15T15:39:00

2004-12-15T21:47:43Z

I got the rolly on my arm and I'm pouring Chandon
And I roll the best weed cause I got it going on

Yeah. I love that song. I don't know why. I never liked Snoop Dogg, or much of any rap too much. But then again, Pharrell is in that song, and when hes in songs, they are always awesome.

Everyones going to that Terror show saturday, I think hatebreed is playing too. But me and Steff are awesome, and better, so we're going to Straightjackit & Abuelo En Fuego. Yess.

School went so slow today. Slower than ever. But it was nice. I like school. Or uh, most the time.

Break is in 2 more days though, which I am looking forward to that as well.

I'm in a mood right now where i'd like to just leave everyone and I know and start over somewhere. Or just, go somewhere else and not know anyone. I'd miss people eventually though, just not right now.

there's too much bad out there
very nearly everywhere
and too damned few who really care
assses the mess!!! indeed, indeed!
famine, bullshit, corporate greed
elections stolen like a bird steals seed
space shots, stations, circling high
trillions for each and every try
down here, we simply, daily, die.
i love powerman 5000.
yeah, i admit it.

zombiecrowd @ 2004-12-13T23:20:00

2004-12-14T05:21:59Z

Black & white. Oooooh yeah.

Death penalty = stupid. Yeah. I could go on but i've already done it in my xanga.

Tuesdays = usually good.

Being tired & having homework = no good.

My friends = the best ever, and I love them all to pieces.

zombiecrowd @ 2004-12-13T17:22:00

2004-12-13T23:23:16Z

kristin: dude,that deaf bitch is making me,glory,abbey hanney and solomon clean her fucking classroom after school on wednesday
me: why??
kristin: because these guys in the class before us trashed the auditorium..
kristin: and she thinks it was us.
me: stupid whore
kristin: yeah..im gonna find out where she lives,have elle shit in a box and im putting it on her doorstep

My friends are better than yyooooours.

zombiecrowd @ 2004-12-12T22:30:00

2004-12-13T05:19:15Z

hahaha.

I &hearts; Steff.

Haha my head looks big. But I don't carree.

And Britt's leaving in 4 days. Not cool. She told me we were going to stop talking on new years, because that'll be the day i've known her for 2 years. My eyes got all watery. I know we won't, but still.

I wish it was next Saturday. I don't want to go to school. I don't want to finish my homework. I don't want to read the books they want us to read. I don't want to listen to people talk about pointless things. I just want to be with my friends and stuff. OH WELL.

Fuck shit.

I love saves the day.

zombiecrowd @ 2004-12-12T01:55:00

2004-12-12T07:58:36Z

"the punks might be goin to war with the blacks at our school they hit Phill and thats fucked up so WE ARE GOING TO WAR."

Dear jesus, I am so glad I left jenks. Fuck the fucking nazi population growing, because people are dumb and have nothing better to do.

Besides that, i'm in a great mood. Went to a show tonight, it was good. Steff is over. Yeah shes sleeping but that's okay. Friday was good. I was about to say id never seen anyone puke all over themselfs & blood in the same night, but then I forgot I threw up on myself and saw Big B fall into the glass table. ha, good times.

I have nothing to say, besides the fact im in a good mood.
And.
I realized I have way pretty eyes.

And messing up pictures is funnnnnn. I think I just love it because it makes me look pale as fuck.

SEE, MY EYES ARE AMAZING. Or well today they are. Half the time they are some boring color. Whateve.

I was doing homework. Who does homework at 2 in the morning on a Saturday night? Yes, cool people do. But I start reading this book some Alex kid in gym loaned me, and it's good. I'd write something about it....but I forgot, and it's in the other room.

Oh well. I love you. Goodnight.